Ok, so here i am. Early Friday morning, watching/listening to vh1 music videos, and i feel like i will finally start to blog. I don't think I'll ever figure this one out.
Anywho, where should I begin? I've wanted to blog for a long time, but never got around to it. I think most of it has to do with my being unorganized with my life. Yeah...
Well I'll start from beginning college.
When I began college, I don't know what I expected really. I originally signed up to be put in a single room dorm, but ended up in a 4 person suite. And for a time, I was happy that happened to me, for I met alot of people and had alot of fun. However, now I really wish for the single. I find it impossible to concentrate with other people around me. My door is always open and people walk in and out. I could go to the library, but It's work like drawing mostly...OKAY well not mostly. But I still don't want to leave my room because of all the people that walk through. My bed gets sat on and my stuff gets touched, and I know that for a fact. Plus I find it really hard to concentrate in the city. It's noisy and confined. I'm the type to take things slow, and the city is way too fast for me. I need my field and trees, and going to central park is not enough -_- I do not want to be between concrete and visit green. I need it the other way around.
Anyway, so aside from the fact I hate living in the city, I think I might want to transfer. First of all, I want to dorm, but not in the city. And I want to continue my major. I want the push to start looking out for myself. Although I'm glad to be home, it's not the same. So I'm going to look into Syracuse and RISD. Hoping RISD has my major, because it is closer.
I'm trying to do what's best for me, but honestly I don't know what's best for me. I'll admit I'm lost right now. I'm trying my hardest to figure it out, i've heard alot of different views from people, but in the end i feel like I just have to know for myself.
My second concern in my life right now is my friends. I'm a bit depressed that everyone's far away. I know I never showed it much maybe, but I love the friends I made. Maybe I have too high expectations back from them, but I just wanted the closest friends I could possibly have.
The people I see nowadays, are not the people I would hangout with really. I'm kind of lonely and miss highschool.
Eh I feel like there's alot more I could have said in this entry, but I suddenly became uninspired to blog. I'm glad I at least did though.
Woot.
